Showing posts with label Personal Experience. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal Experience. Show all posts

Why do you Need a Lover Right Now!

Hi everyone its Sam here. Pandemic has taught us a lot of things. Starting from being a cook to appreciate family and friends, something which we often take as granted. For those who managed to have a partner or lover before quarantine congratulations but for those who are still waiting for his/her soulmate here's some reasons why you need a lover right now.



#Understanding each other 
One thing that this pandemic has made me realize that how small our lives are. We are always at the mercy of mother nature. Racing after success is what we have been doing that made us to sacrifice living our lives. Compromising feelings, emotions for each other has made us a machine. An understanding partner always tries to maintain the personal and social life together. There are several times when we face any problem and can't think properly our partner's helping hand saves the day.

#Developing a deep rooted connection
In committed relationship it is very important to put sufficient amount of effort to develop a connection with people who are very close to your partner. This seeds the base for developing a deep rooted connection. Taking care and investing time and effort to develop a good relationship with friends and family may give other the sense of safety and security.

#Working together on issues
It is universal that we all face problems in relationship. It is the way how we deal with the problems. We must know that all of us are different with difference in our mentality and opinion. Showing ego will complicate the problems even more which can easily be avoided if both the partners can work together. Respecting other's opinion even we agree or not is very important. Developing patience to listen, discussing just like a team with each other can solve the problems.

# Meaningful Sex
Generation X is all about sex. Well none can deny that and the fact is you can have sex as much as you would like. But having a meaningful sex with your lover satisfies not only your physical needs but also your mental demands which casual sex can never fulfil. Sex plays a very important part in developing relationship and relive mental distress. 

Took 65 years to come out

Hi everyone, this is Sam. Trans genders have always been a part of our society kept hidden from the eyes. Our culture teaches us to question anything that doesn't fall under our knowledge.  It doesn't show any mercy and can become cruel to those who goes against it. Fear of losing everything. How much it can affect us?

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If you want to know the answer you must know about Catilyn Jenner aka Bruce Jenner. It took him 65 years to accept himself and express his true identity as Woman.
Bruce, being a child with dyslexia had hard time to focus on study. Bruce Jenner happens to be one of the world's best athlete. His career in sports started with receiving scholarship that he couldn't continue due to his knee injury. He was advised to go for track rather than football or basketball by his coach. He participated in Decathlon in 1972 and secured 10th place. In 1976, he became a world champion in Olympics.

Our society portrays a different picture for people like him- macho, full of manliness, success and money. As a result he was married with Chrystie Crownover and had two children.
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As he was focused more into sports to get away from the guilt and fear about his fame and career their marriage didn't last. Linda Diane Thompson came into his life as the second woman and they had two children. Linda came to know about her husband's true identity.

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Although she was kind of shocked to know about his husband's obsession with women clothes, it was Bruce's first reveal about his long lost identity which he kept safe for years. The two got separated but Linda kept his secret within her and kept her promise.
By this time Bruce was broke when he met Kris Jenner  on a blind date and they got hitched within 5 months. Kris took care of his financial crisis and the two initiated many businesses together.


Kris already had three 4children (Kourtney, Kim, Khloé and Robert Kardashians )  from her first marriage. Kris and Bruce had two daughters, Kendall Jenner and Kylie Jenner. According to Bruce, he was quite surprised to became a father with two daughters while he was on hormone therapy. Keeping up with Kardashians was a great success that also brought out a lot of secrets that Bruce didn't want to reveal. In 2013,  Bruce decided to separate from Kris and on the following year they filed divorce.



In 2015 Bruce finally decided to come out and express his true self. on an interview with Diane Sawyer, he openly talked about his life and 65 years of struggle as a transgender.


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How much does it take to accept one's own self? Apparently a lot, at least for a person who is still in closet. A gay person who is afraid of his secrets, tries to find a sense of love and affection from his community and our community don't show any mercy towards these people. Forcing them to come out, bashing them publicly or humiliating further breaks the person morally. These people when gets married, is forced to prove his manliness. Domestic violence is one such result of showing off dominance. Thus being a part of this family, we need to change our mind, reassess our perspectives so that people feel comfortable to their own skin. Together we can bring the change that unites us because one thing that we lack nowadays is  nothing but unity.


Transphobia

Hi guys it's Sam here. Transgenders are one of the greatest warriors in LGBTQ community. By definition transgenders are those who are born with one of the socially recognized sexes but identify or would like to identify themselves with opposite sex. 

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#Why transgenders are considered as warriors?
Gender is a social construct and until one understands the gender concept, it becomes harder  to identify himself/herself as male or female. Our biological sex determines the gender role to be played by us. For example man is considered as a provider and women is supposed to take care of her family members. But what about those who don't fall into these stereotype categories?
For them this creates confusion. People with gender confusion are generally called as gender incongruence. Transgender people have a gender identity or gender expression that differs from their sex assigned at birth. A transgender fails to fit in the society because of lack of options available for them.


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The confusion grows much more as the child grows with changes in his/her physiology along with psychology. This utter confusion may hit a child hard and he/she finds himself/herself emersed in depression and to some extent suicidal. When your body doesn't match with your mentality it often leads to oppression of your feelings and countless failure attempts to be someone which you're not. Teasing, abusing (both verbally or physically) right from a very tender age trying to prevent from expressing their view about gender seeds the hate. Parents, teachers or people who has nothing to do with us feelsoffended with behavior, lifestyle. You are nothing but a "Whore". Rejection, deprivation, ignorance honours your crown. Every decision that you take is a subject of discussion for everyone as if our life is at their mercy. 
Bullying at school and public, calling by different names are some of awards we receive throughout our life time.

#How Transphobia is born?
A phobia is a psychological condition that makes one to react or behave in a certain way when encountered. Trans-phobia typically indicates a strong reaction (usually negative) against a person who expresses himself or herself as a Transgender.

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#What is the Psychology behind trans-phobia?
Society always plays the major role in developing hatred, disgust or violence. Orthodox families don't accept the changes that people like transgender strive for. Parents teach their child to restrict themselves within the norms of the society. Apparently it's supposed to make one more "normal" and socially acceptable. The effect of such mentality can be corrosive. It prevents us to accept and embrace something that challenges their traditional beliefs. 

#How do we change this?
Curiosity is something that all human possess inherently. The curiosity to know more about the unknown can encourage one educating one's own self resulting into the expansion of the horizon of mental circle by building an egalitarian society where people are not categorised based on their GENDER  and discrimination has no place.

Enslaved: A Gay Fantasy

Hi everyone its Sam here. Today I'm going to talk about my first hand experience on being enslaved with a Daddy.

Enslaved: A Gay Fantasy

From a very tender age I realized I was gay. Thus high school became my experimental phase in my life. Starting from kissing to fucking I became a pro in no time. Giving blowjobs to many of my classmates during class or break was a part of my daily routine. Basically I became what I always wanted that is a Slut. But I was not happy. Porn was my teacher from the beginning and I  always wanted  to be manhandled and abused by a daddy.

Fortunately my best friend's uncle was a gay and a hardcore daddy. How do I know? Actually he saw me fucked by my best friend on several occasions. Everytime I used to go to his place he used to let me touch his dick, even in front of my friend.

The day when we decided to have sex he brought me to his place and made me to lick his armpit to spit on my face. Sucking toes to putting objets in my ass everything. I was in heaven, finally my wish came true. I was happy. He encouraged made me a horny bitch and have orgasms so intense that I never experienced in my life. That's the first time we fulfilled our fetishes and we continued till the end of my high school. 

Regret of losing First Love

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Hi! This is Sam. Today I'll be talking about my first love. Well why first? cause it didn't last.
Each one of us always wants to hear that three magical words. Love comes when you least expect.
Usually most of us don't have any idea about what we should do when you are in "relationship". Over possessiveness, freaking out are some of very common reactions. My life is no different from others. I freaked out, became too possessive, emotional turmoil and what not!

Right from the beginning I tried to maintain a low profile by not giving too much importance but as time went on & things started to take unusual turns we found ourselves amidst of family as well as social issues. Love became secondary in our life.

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We were poles apart, an invisible wall and silence became our constant companion. We decided to take a break. We continued messaging and occasional meet but that spark is nowhere to be found. Within a week or so we started to move on but none of us didn't even think about to resolve anything. A competition of ego destroyed the last thread that kept us together. Finally we were back to singles club.

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I regret my decision and wouldn't even try to justify my foolishness. Love makes you blind- yes it does, but in my case it was ego, immaturity that lead me to lose my first Love.

Surprise Gay sex with my crush


Hi this is Sam. Aaj hum jo story btane wale hain wo mere college k time ka hain. In 2013, I was studying biology at a not so reputed college. Mera college mere ghar se almost 2hours ka tha. Kyunki main ek town se belong krta hun aur mera college sahar me tha to adjust krne me mujhe kabhi kabhi problm hota. Sahar k logo ka lifestyle bohot alag hota hain. College me admission lene k time maine bohot sare dost bnaye the, unme se ek hain Anil. Anil almost 6ft ka tha aur muscular and sexy tha. Maine usse jab pehli bar dekha tabhi mere man me uske liye kam jag utha tha. Hyyy....kitna handsome!  College start hote hi humdono ka dosti aur strong hone laga. Kabhi majak majak uske body ko chu lete to mere body me jaise current bah jata. Chune ka mauka milta toh hum kabhi wait nahi krte.

Itna handsome hone k karan uske age piche ladkiyon ki line lag jati. But mujhe wo acha ni lgta. Kabhi kabhi toh usse hum ladh jate girls ko lekar. Wo hume kuch na kuch krke mna hi leta tha. Sab kuch acha chal rha tha. Fir hum dono k beech ayi Nikita. Dekhne me achi thi aur friendly bhi isliye bade asani se wo Anil k dil me jagah bnali. Mujhe ye bilkul acha ni lgrha tha par dost khush tha to hum kuch ni bole aur khud ko samjha liye.

Isime humlogo ka first year khatam ho gya. Iss time me wo dono bf-gf ho chuke the aur sex wagera bhi ho chuka tha. Anil humse sab kuch share krta tha, isliye ye bhi usne mujhe btaya tha. Khud ko strong krte huye hume usko bola ki agar wo khush hain to main bhi. Ye sunkr wo thodi der chup rha. Mujhe doubt hone laga ki ye sach bolrha tha ya nahi. Fir humne kuch ni bola aur hum dono cigarette pine k chale gye.

Anil ya main dono hi daru jyada pite ni the. Weekend me dono kabhi kabar uske ya mere ghar beer piya krte the. Jab jab hum dono pite the ek dusre ko kuch na kuch secret share krte the. Ye hum dono ka rule tha. Midterm exam khatam hone k baad hum ek weekend ko uske ghar gaye pine k liye. Usne sare intezam krke rakha hua tha. Beer k badle whisky dekhkr hum thoda shock me jaroor the pr hum kuch nahi bole. 

Peg bnate huye hum dono exam ki baat, ghar ka stress ye sara discuss krne lge. Thodi der bad usse aur mujhe thoda bohot nasha chad gya aur Anil apni gf k bare me btana shuru kiya. Hum bas sun rahe the ki itne me usne bola k wo usse khush nahi hain aur wo uske sath break up krna chata hain. Ye sun kar hum maan hi maan bohot khush huye aur hasne lge. Usko lga ki mujhe nasha kuch jyada hi chad gya isliye hum hass rhe hain.

Second year me humlogo ko excursion jana hota hain project k liye. Kyunki humare class me jyada ladke ni tha toh isliye mujhe Anil k sath room share krna padha. Mujhe pta tha ki Anil ka Nikita k sath unofficially break up ho chuka hain Kyunki dono k beech milna jhulna bandh ho chuka tha. Excursion 3din tak chalne wala tha. 2nd din hume notice kiya Anil bohot udaas hain. Dono kisi ko bina btaye hotel k ek server se daru lane ko bole. Extra tip  k liye usne jhat se daru aur kuch chakna humare room me pahucha diye. Raat ko teacher k sath dinner krke room me aye aur pina shuru kiye. 

Ek peg k baad suddenly humne dekha k Anil ro rha hain. Hum usse samjhane k kosish krne ki koshish krne lage toh wo jhat se mujhe hug krliya. Hum usse continue baatn kr rhe the to itne me usne mere muh pe apne ungli rakha aur ishare me samjhaya ki chup kro aur kuch na bolo. Hum chup krte hi usne bola "I love you". Pehle toh mujhe laga ki wo majak kr rha hain fir baad me lga ki wo serious hain. Hum bole k shyad break up k wajah se wo akela feel kr rha hain isliye aisa bola. Hum aur shock ho gye ye sunkr ki break up k wajah hum hain. Ab mujhe gussa aya! Wo continue krte huye bola ki " Main bisexual hun aur tujhse bohot pyar krta hun". Ye sunkr main bhi rone laga. Anil bola k usko pehle se hi pta tha k hum gay hain aur usse chahte hain. Apni sachhai kisiko share na kr pane k wajah se wo ghutan si feel kr rha tha. Thodi der hum dono ek dusre ko apni maan ki baaten share kiye.

Daru khatam krne k bad usne bola ki aaj hum dono ek ho jayenge. Fir usne mujhe kiss krte huye bistar me letaya. Khud ko aur mujhe nanga krke usne bola ki koi humdono ko alag ni krskta aaj k baad. Itne me mere anadr kam jagh utha aur main bhi usse kiss krne laga aur usko bj dena shuru krdiya. Thodi der baad wo bola k wo anal krna chata hain. Apni bag se cream nikal kr humne usko bola ki pehle thoda loose krle ye dal kr. Mere baat maan kr usne sab kiya aur hum dono almost 1hour sex kiya. Aur fir dono hi so gye. Next day hum dono apna kaam khatam krke ghar aagye aur humne Anil ko first time in my life itna khush hote huye dekha aur bola ki "I love you too."

Iss k baad se hum dono secretly relationship maintain kiye almost 2 sal tak fir alag ho gye. Nahi kuch problem k ni bas kaam k wajah se. I'm still in touch with him aur aaj tak wo "surprise sex" ko cherish krta hun.

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Gay sex with cousin


Hi I'm Sam. Isse pehle aap logo ko maine apne pehli gay sex k bare me btaya tha. Aj jo main btane wala hun wo winter vacation ki baat hain.

Thand mujhe boht pasand hain. Mujhe Ice cream khana, ghumne jana iss time me bohot acha lgta hain. 2011, tab hum 12th class me the aur apne gao jane wale the chuttiyan spend krne. Mera gaon rachi sahar se 3km hain. Gaon pahunch te hi hum bohot happy mahsus krne lage. Mummy papa, behen sare baaten krne lge par mujhe ghumna tha to isliye hum apne cousin brother k sath nikal padhe. 

Mera bhai humse 5sal ka bada hain. Muscular, gym toned body, with very less hair. Dekhne me kisi model se kam ni tha. Gora toh ni tha par must desi gabru. Jawani toh jaise chupaya ni ja rha tha usse. Adhi button khuli shirt aur dhoti pehne huye itna handsome lgrha tha ki mujhe heart attack aajaye.
Apna royal enfild lekar usne humse pucha k ghumne jana hain k ni. Hum apni excitement ko apne andar dabakar unko apna sir hilakr jwab diya "haa". Hum uske piche baithe aur dono nikal gye. Raste me bohot kosish kiye k usko chipak k baithe par darr lgrha tha k wo bura na maan jay.

Poora din ghum k ghar aaye toh thakan se mujhe nind aane lga. Kyunki gaon me jyada log ni aate hain isliye ghar kam hain aur jab bhi humlog jate hain adjust krke sote hain. Hum bhai k sath eksath uske bistar pe soye. Next morning ko mujhe bohot jor ka toilet laga toh hum bistar chor kar uthne hi wale the k tabhi dekha k bhai k dhoti side ho gya hain aur uska land bahar nikal aaya. Mujhe ye dekhke hairani ho gyi ki wo itna hard kyun hain. Fir mujhe laga k bhai kuch acha sapna dekhrha hain.

Toilet se wapas aate hi humne dekha k bhai apna sara kuch samet liye. Kam se kam hulchul kiye hum firse so gye par dimaag me ek hi chiz chal rha tha k kyun humne usko touch ni kiya. Bohot der tak aise hi lete rahne k baad suddenly mujhe kuch ahsas hua. Bhai kal lund firse jag gya aur ab to wo mere thigh ko touch kr rha tha. Mera bhi hard ho gya. Humne dhire se usse land ko touch kiya aur bina time gwaye usko upar niche krne lage. Pta ni kyun mujhe lagrha tha ki bhai jaga hua hain aur sone ka natak kr rha hain. Hum apna kaam krte rahe. Fir hum baithgye aur land ko pura muh me leliye. Itne me hi bhai aah krne lga aur mujhe pta chal gya ki usko bhi maja aa rha hain. Thodi der baad humne apna thuk liya aur khud ki gand me dalne lage. 1-2min k baad hum lund k upar baith gaye..Ouch! Mera muh se nikal gya..thodi der aise hi baithe rahne k baad jab pain thoda kam hua toh upar niche krne lage.. Aisa 10min tak krne k baad mujhe ahsas hua k bhai ne paani gira diya hain andar hum thoda apne aapko saaaf kiya aur firse so gya. Bagal me sone k baad bhai dheere se kaan k paas aakr bola thank you and i love you. 

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Why gay relationship is unstable?


Relationship, the best thing if you have it and if you don't you are a wuss. Well this is what people think if you are a straight. But how does gay relationship works? And why don't we see more stabililty in gay relationship than the straight?

Let me start by saying that the problem is "US". But the question that follows with that is how? and why? To explain this we need to understand the social concept of our development. We don't choose what we believe and what not right from a very tender age. Right from our childhood everything that we do or don't, likes or dislikes are strongly influenced by our culture and tradition taught by our family members. 

So if one decides to come out of these finds himself or herself in a dilemma. It's almost universal "either me or family". Taking decision is nothing less than a Herculean task. People with strong mentality can go for the first and rest remorse till the death. Question is, what does that have to do with relationship? You can't have a relationship with one person. When we are in a relationship we tend influence the other person same way that we've been brought up. This is the spark that can potentially burn the bond built over a long time. The relationship bites into the dust and hatred is born. 

How do we get out of this situation? Well the easiest way is to accept each other as it is without even trying to change the other. A sense of respect not only for the person but also for his/her culture is the key to establish a meaningful relationship on the basis of understanding.

Please let me know what you guys think the biggest cause of unstable relationship in the comments.

In search of Love: A journey of a closet gay


Love, a child's world, teen's pacing heart or an old's memory, we often find ourselves amongst these looking for something or someone to fill up the void in our life. 

I am the youngest of three. My elder sisters never hesitated to dress me, play with Barbie or even putting makeup occasionally. I never felt angry or alone till I understood that I'm not like that normal. I always enjoyed being a girl.

My parents are illiterate and never made any wall between me and my sisters. Actually they never knew what quality time is. In a lower middle class family providing food and essentials are an ambition itself. So wishful thinking became a part of my life. 

I don't exactly remember when I realized that I was gay. For me, education was the only way out of this poverty, therefore I never gave importance to all those comments that people used to shower on me. From the childhood, l was never hesitant to talk to someone. Thus I had friends, boys in particular. I was around 14 when a friend of mine who was 3years older than me came in my life. 

He's the first person whom I could trust. His generous, innocence made me feel a sense of Completedness. I think some of you can correlate with me. We never had any tag but he used to come to my home and watch porn together on DVD. Those who don't know what a DVD is, it's a CD type of thing that used to contain 3/5movies together (ask any 90's kid). He used to giggle on my jokes. I was on cloud nine as I also had someone just like that of my friends at school. For the first time in my life my crush is no longer a crush but my boyfriend. 

A lot happened between us before we got seperated. I'll tell you that on my next blog....

Please feel free to comment and let me know your experiences..