Love, a child's world, teen's pacing heart or an old's memory, we often find ourselves amongst these looking for something or someone to fill up the void in our life.
I am the youngest of three. My elder sisters never hesitated to dress me, play with Barbie or even putting makeup occasionally. I never felt angry or alone till I understood that I'm not like that normal. I always enjoyed being a girl.
My parents are illiterate and never made any wall between me and my sisters. Actually they never knew what quality time is. In a lower middle class family providing food and essentials are an ambition itself. So wishful thinking became a part of my life.
I don't exactly remember when I realized that I was gay. For me, education was the only way out of this poverty, therefore I never gave importance to all those comments that people used to shower on me. From the childhood, l was never hesitant to talk to someone. Thus I had friends, boys in particular. I was around 14 when a friend of mine who was 3years older than me came in my life.
He's the first person whom I could trust. His generous, innocence made me feel a sense of Completedness. I think some of you can correlate with me. We never had any tag but he used to come to my home and watch porn together on DVD. Those who don't know what a DVD is, it's a CD type of thing that used to contain 3/5movies together (ask any 90's kid). He used to giggle on my jokes. I was on cloud nine as I also had someone just like that of my friends at school. For the first time in my life my crush is no longer a crush but my boyfriend.
A lot happened between us before we got seperated. I'll tell you that on my next blog....
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